MY HONEST REACTION:

Me

Peter: "I'm not sure where one day ends and the next begins. We usually leave the show after we're done. We'll take a break, meet some fans, then take another break on the bus and eat and talk. Then we go to sleep and when we wake up we're at the next hotel. Then we get to shower, and make a hundred phone calls. Then we're off to soundcheck. After soundcheck, these guys like to hang out, I usually work out. Then it's time to make fools of ourselves on stage."

LW: I interviewed Kenny before and he said that he didn't get up till 5 PM. Today he really didn't. Is he the only one like that?

Peter: "He's the most nocturnal."

LW: I know that you do a lot of weight lifting. Do you do that on the bus?

Peter: "It's a back room on the bus, I'll show you when we're done."

LW: Does anyone else lift weights in the band?

Peter: "Johnny's got his beer can, he does a lot of curls with that."

Josh: "I lift four packs."

Peter: "Kenny just drags himself around, which is all the exercise that he can handle."

LW: When I interviewed him once before, I asked him what he did after shows and he said he would go find drugs...

Josh: "That's Kenny. That's as an honest answer. Dealing with the stress, and living in these conditions, naturally it's nice to be completely shit-faced and escape."

Peter: "If you can't escape physically, you have to escape mentally."

~Peter Steele and Josh Silver~ Livewire Interview 1997

When your only flex is sleeping for 3 hours, falling asleep mid classes, not eating breakfast or dinner, barely drinking anything for sum reason, getting bad grades, barely getting out of bed, being incredibly gay and your screen time (it manages to be 25 hours a day somehow)

Hole performing at Uptown Bar in Minneapolis, Minnesota. July 4, 1991.

Photographed by Brian Garrity.

josh silver in the music video for Everything Dies (1999),

a closer look/translation of this josh silver magazine snippet!

translation (or if you just don’t wanna zoom in lol):

As California crumbles after another massive quake, a mother learns her son lives dead among the rubble of an apartment building, and the camera never stops rolling.

Tears and anguish captured. like a zoo animal, to be watched and witnessed repeatedly-just one scene in a videotape chronicle of human suffering.

Three thousand miles away,

Andrea Elston finishes a full back plece of Satan flanked by pillars of masterbating demons. Her canvas is Type O Negative keyboardist Josh Silver, a man whose body is as much a record of death as a five o'clock newsreel.

"People are obsessed with what they have to come to terms with," says Silver.

Dying doesn't frighten him, but it absorbs him. And just as death is at once beautiful and horrific, compelling and repellent, mysterious and yet familiar, so is the art adorning his upper body—a testimony to his great obsession.

A circa 1940s grim reaper design inked 16 years ago by Brooklyn Bill keeps company with a Japanese death character (Mike Perfetto, Brooklyn) and tribal death rows inked by Huggy Bear as a memorial to an older brother who died when Silver was ten. Two giant roses on the back of his left arm are also dedicated to his bro.

The "eclectic nightmare" of his right sleeve is composed of a skull of wings, a skull with horns and a grim reaper cover piece among other non-death-related works, including the requisite Type 0 Negative symbol.

Ah, yes, the band. Art imitates art as T.O.N., straying from the full metal anger shrouding first release Slow, Deep, and Hard, seems to have dipped into the psychedelic "color thing with eyeball" creeping up Sliver's shoulder for the second full-length album, Bloody Kisses.

Type O Negative delivers their original metaledge with a Sixties pop sensibility, as they address accusations of misogyny, racism and fascism with songs entitied "Kill All the White People, -We Hate Everyone" and

"Machine Screw.”

As co-producer, Silver was able to soak this third release (EP Origin of the Feces was released in 1992) with the sweat of his own demons-

not all of which are

death-centered. The cloaked, cloven-hoofed skeleton figure (George Belew, Leguna Beach) representing Silver's fear of prison is like the

"bad acid trip" interludes connecting the songs on Bloody Kisses: seemingly unrelated but essential to the overall concept.

For Silver, the concept is bitter, brutal and a constant reminder that the purpose of recording history in any medium-be it video, CD, or the human body, is to remember… and not to regret.

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I would’ve been the ultimate groupie smh 🤦🏾‍♀️

would’ve done tricks on it and everything

I love his sideburns!! And the beard!

pretend

Gonna crack a rib when I get home

I'm gonna bury you in my favorite hole

I made a bloody mess in the kitchen sink

I tried to fix myself but I didn't think

They said, "We just want to talk with you"

"We just want to walk you through" oh

Oh, I don't want to see me

I wanna be trapped in you

Oh, I don't want to be me

But I'm gonna pretend for you, oh

Let's paint our nails and keep it real

'Cause honey all I know is what I feel

I'm still looking for a friend of a friend

He said he'd hook me up, he told me what he had

They say, "Leave your body, leave your mind

Don't you know you're out of time?"

In his room, in his bed

You can't hear what he said

Looks like dirt, tastes like trash

Honey, I know you could float right past, oh, oh

Oh, I don't want to see me

I wanna be trapped in you

Oh, I don't want to be me

But I'm gonna pretend for you, oh

By Alex G

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Damn this lyrics hit me so bad