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tomorrow im fr locking in after my holidays i WILL be at least 59 kg
my friend next to me as she watches me like ed stuff on my tumblr feed
i think i believe in some kind if higher power, its not like, god, or anything like that. recently ive just been noticing that things are happening that align perfectly with my goals and my needs. like, at work, i had to do a job and i needed a certain number of things to do it and i grabbed the perfect amount first try?!?
(tw ed mentioned under cut)
or, like today, i was going to skip lunch but as i was leaving the house my friend asked me if i wanted some of the curry her mum made and its like. okay, maybe the universe wants me to eat today?!?
honestly im willing to do a lobotomy if that shot will make ed disappear
do we think if i would be eating once a day for a week i would faint one day or not(thats a genuine question yes)
one more thought about food/calories and im exploding this planet completly i cant
to be honest im lk scared pf my ed its not even funny🩷 i will have a lot to talk about with my new therapist istg
sometimes i realize how bad my ed effects my daily routines and shit that i have to just sit down and be like "damn."
god whatever higher power that created me must hate me because despite starving my way to 109lbs i’m 5ft so it doesn’t fucking matter plus I’m a g cup so I look even fatter and on top of that I store my fat mostly in my gross lumpy thighs and my stomach looks like an overfilled water balloon in addition to that I neglected (and still do) my dental health so my teeth are fucked and I have an overbite while also having nasty acne that covers my face back and chest not to mention my horrendous stretch marks god I don’t even want to be pretty I just want to be somewhat presentable I will die alone because I’m unlovable due to being horrible to look at and socially awkward!!!!!!
omg life sucks bc im considered “black skinny” and tiny for a black girl but im really not
out of state visiting my family i have no way to discreetly get a scale I don’t know how much i weigh kill me I’ve probably gotten so fat bc I’ve been eating more and walking less
hehe i had like 900-1k cals today i wanna kms lowkey but im just gonna cope by calling it a metab day
wasn’t even worth it cause i only threw up half the meal
purging but your food combo was actually atrocious once it came back up💔
purging but your food combo was actually atrocious once it came back up💔
starving myself until im not dumb anymore challenge GO!!!
this is the beginning of my exercise addiction arc ig cuz I did like an hour on the elliptical and I still wanna do more
round 5 or whatever pls let me rest
exlax girl im sorry for wanting to be skinny i have nothing left to give you PLEASE
exlax girl im sorry for wanting to be skinny i have nothing left to give you PLEASE
ok “best ana” head ass bitch it’s ed tumblr not anorexic tumblr you dumb hoe😭
im seriously so sick of being fat my brothers finally moved to the state I live in (they’re staying with their dad, not me) and one of them said I wasn’t skinny + he called me chubby I know he didn’t mean any harm bc he’s only 12 and he’s a sweetheart im just sensitive and upset bc I’ve been maintaining/failing to restrict enough and im really sorry to myself for allowing myself to eat my way into this fat body that im stuck in and failing to fix it fast enough
trying not to weigh myself cuz of my period but i think im losing this battle😭
white people with eds i don’t like you
attempting a maintenance day bc im stuck in a plateau….
idk some of yall with a restrictive ed are corny as fuck😭
i took double the amount of those little chocolate laxatives and NOTHING!!!!
girl I dreamt about eating a 730 cal donut it’s getting baaaad for me😭
my chest bones are starting to peek through
trying a metab day today and ougghhhh i don’t feel so good im so full and ashamed😞