Sensory Overstimulation - Blog Posts

l1vvyst4r

7 months ago

Sensory overload （ ; ; ）

I hate the world. It’s so hard to function. The big trip yesterday has left me feeling very overwhelmed and overstimulated and now I have another day at college. I feel like I’m two steps away from having a sensory overload! I hate how neurotypical the world is as it’s the most difficult place to function!

I wanna go back home and regress so I can safely cry my eyes out and feel as frustrated and overwhelmed as I want in a safe space. Then I’d have my stuffies for comfort and I could have a nap after all the crying and overwhelming feelings. I wanna be in little space so badly I don’t have a cg and I can’t tell my friends or family cause of what it is. Life feels so difficult for me at the moment and I hate it.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day/night and stay safe!

Overload

Time clicking past far too quickly

I haven't finished a single thing

I feel my breath start to get short

Both assignments are due today

I scramble to collect my shit

shuffling my carpeted footsteps

I bang into the hallway and freeze.

A wall of sound. Thousands of words.

Quivering worry, mocking anger,

rampant laughter, bubbling enthusiasm,

sick disappointment, crackling sarcasm,

sounds and sounds and sounds

and so many emotions in a single soundbite

the lights a glaring florescent nightmare,

my brain starts to shake in my skull

and everything inside is screaming run.

Too much, it's all too much

my perception of reality is glitching

and I realize I'm going insane.

Someone says sensory overload

I nod and push myself into class,

shaking gently.