Unmotivated - Blog Posts

Ugh, my children, my ducklings, my dragonets, my baby wolf spiders, I'm so unmotivated i feel like I've lost all my whimsy and idk what to doooooaaaah >:*[

I'll take anything at this point

Studying sounds nice and productive but where do i get motivation?

I am failing my readers—sorry guys lol

I have not worked on Feral and I might abandon that fic but I don't really want to. The rest of my fics I will NOT be abandoning tho. I just like working on fics in order and I was supposed to update Feral next . . .

The main problem is me having work and college at the same time. Usually, if I just had school during the day, I could do homework and then work on fics, but I go to work and then I'm supposed to do school at home?? Omg it sucks and I have yet to turn in more than 2 assignments in the last few weeks. I feel guilty working on anything that isn't homework, so I'm planning on working on my fics during the summer when classes are over for me (though I have two summer classes oof)

I will also make fanart once I have caught up on my assignments tho idk how I'll do that but we'll see if I can do my hw before I get kicked out of college or something

Unmotivated..

Why do I feel so uninspired. So unmotivated with what life has given me. Or to be frank, has thrown at me from the deep edges of hell for me to jump over. There is of course wonderful days to thank over. I always pray for more. Having shreds of happiness to cling onto in my most heartbreaking moments. Only to be starved, having only sleep for sustinance, having my bed shared by anxiety, depressive and the leeching feeling of uselessness by me taking no action. Instead, scared of the unraveled consequences. How stupid is that to say out loud, but it happens.

Just being always having my hands filled felt so accomplishing but so painful to think about, afraid of that deadline. It keeps you occupied and having some sort of safe space but its a facade, A facade that gives you new worries, new responsibilities than the ones you hear on a daily basis. In conclusion, That "safe space" manifested in your subconcious a labrynth with multiple doors leading to multiple problems to walk through rather than dealing it all through that single door. Your'e just not able to come to grips to say that that hallway to another room is not a salvation. That door is just taking you deeper into the labrynth until its difficult to get out.

To have people tell you to take a break is good to hear. Makes you think they care, and they do. There are definitely people you can love and trust through this time, but you feel so used to the routine you cant stop. You can stop the cycle, but it requires sacrifices and the mental torment of change. Change is a pain that's beneficial, a daily prescription I personally need to take continuously and so do many others. With change, my inspiration and my motivation will recover. And we can do better in life by seeing the positives more clearly, And to not overlook the bad, but be able to understand and keep that negative at a healthy dose so it doesn't spiral within us again.

(Hello! It's been a long time since I posted here. Based on this post, been feeling so down for a long time and back and forth trying to pull myself up. I thought to start again I could write about those feelings because I know a lot of people who feel a little similar. And thank you so much to the people who liked my other works that means a lot to me because I always feel a bit scared to share my thoughts on the internet of all places but now I feel more inspired and want to see people who maybe liek my perspective or want to say there own thoughts on subjects with me. I find it interesting. I hope you have a great day, and if you're stuck in a cycle like me. It's ok, take your time to get out but of course, acknowledge the longer you take the more impact it'll happen on you.)

You must break the pattern today or the loop will repeat tomorrow

ngl this quote has kinda changed my life so…. I thought I’d share

Every time I feel really unmotivated I just repeat that I’m my head

it may or may not work for you

why. TELL ME WHYYYYY IS IT SO HARD TO FIND A SCRIPT THAT FITS YOUUUUU UGHHHHHHH(specifically notion) “why don’t you just make you ow- THIS IS ME ON A DAILY BASIS

IM IN A CONSTANT STATE OF “i wanna go to bed” AND FOR SOME REASON THE ONLY TIME I GET INSPIRED ITS WHEN ITS AT NIGHT AND I DONT HAVE MY PHONE. UGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I wanted to ask if you could write some JD smut, where he's like really submissive and admits liking being topped by the reader

DEAD GIRL WALKING STYLE??? IM MELTING.

A/N: again, i apologize for this taking so long. Unmotivated queen here.

Masterlist

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Seeing JD climb through your window yet again didn’t surprise you. It was almost a nightly occurrence at this point. Did this man EVER sleep??

“Greetings and salutations, darling.” He said right before he fell into your room. He was so lucky your parents were out on a business trip.

“Do you ever greet someone with something other than ‘greetings and salutations’ or..” You laughed.

“What? It sounds.. nice. On the topic of nice, god damn darling, you look good tonight.”

A smile danced across your face, as you move to make space for JD. Many times had he fallen through your window and almost been shot by your father. He just never learned, did he? JD climbed into your bed, moving into your lap and kissing you hard. You wrapped your arms around him, pulling him in closer. He tugged at your top, trying to get it off. He tugged it off and tossed it to the side, taking his coat off and tossing it over his shoulder.

“Damn, Jason. You really dont wear anything other than black, do you?”

You asked, referencing to the black top he was wearing. He moved to attach his lips to yours again, this time removing his pants and yours soon after. He groaned when he released you weren’t wearing anything underneath.

“May i?..”

He asked softly. “Go ahead, sweet boy.”

He dove in, taking your warm folds into his mouth. You buried your hand into his messy black hair, moaning softly. He put two fingers inside of you, curling them while sucking on your clit.

“Fuuuck. Just.. just like that, Jay.” Soon enough, his face was covered in your cum. He quickly licked it all up, removing his boxers. He sat on the bed next to you and you got up and straddled him, lowering yourself onto him. He whined softly, as you began to ride him.

“Do you like it when im on top, jay? Hmm?” You whispered in his ear.

“Y..Yes, y/n, i do.” He whined when you slapped his thigh.

“Who? Whats my name.” You whispered.

“Sorry, mommy..” he whined out again.

“That’s more like it.”

This was gonna be a looong night.

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Im actually horrible at smut what. More of a Drabble then it is a fic, but we take what we can get. Im sorry its so short ☠️